Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Whats in a name?

So even though the drag queens won, FaceBook is requesting my real name... Sh!t, Skullarix is as real a name as any I go by. I don't want to give it to them. However now that I've spent about two days with out said FB, I am really realizing how isolating it is. There are 5 groups that I am owner or moderator of, that are either gone or not being monitored. Countless people that I would really like to keep in touch with, up coming events that I would like to go to that I'm now cut off from.

At the same time that I am missing my "friends" I am realizing who my real friends are, the people who are texting me out of the blue asking how I'm doing.

Geez remember back in the day when NO ONE and I mean no one went by their real names on the 'net? It was all internet handles? What happened? Not that I am terribly prone to believing on conspiracies, but it kind of smacks of being cataloged. NSA linking us all together, traffic cameras tracking where we go. 1984 was a warning not a guide!!!!!!

So I am at a cross roads, while I have enjoyed social media for years now, starting with LiveJournal and ending with FB. Should I stay or should I go? Should I just leave it all gone or should I continue on? I was thinking of nuking my internet presence in a couple years anyway... maybe now is the time.

Friday, May 29, 2015

ADF Resignation

I volunteer for a lot of things, pretty much this is ADF’s fault (if there was only one good thing that came from my membership). You learn a lot of things while volunteering.

I had volunteered for the local Irish Festival break down, and there were these red canopies that belonged to the city of Phoenix. We had to move this canopies from the middle of the park into the fenced off portion a.k.a. courtyard of the Irish Cultural Center. One would think this is not an issue until you have the added news of, “you can’t break them down and they are really heavy.” I didn’t think that would be a problem, I mean how heavy could they be, right?

One by one I saw my fellow volunteers, the old timers who had been volunteering for years, “find” something else to do, some even laughed at me. I didn’t think too much of it, until three other people and me had to heft one of these monsters. It was taxing and just generally sucked.

The important lesson I learned that day, if the other volunteers are laughing and disappearing on you, find some other task to do.

ADF is the same as those damnable red canopies. Former members tried to tell me, they tried to warn me about the truth of ADF and I didn’t listen. I looked at the Vision statement and believed: https://www.adf.org/about/basics/vision.html

I use to wonder how people could drop out of the pagan community; it’s always been the furthest thing from my mind once I entered the community. Now I know, my heart is heavy and I feel spent.

It is with a heavy heart that I write this, especially since the Grove took on four new members recently. All the ADF nay sayers were right. It’s not a place to be, run by a bunch of stuffy old bearded Druidy types that want to be the first Druid Catholic Church.

Somehow ADF has forgotten about the pagan community at large, and have decided to embark on a journey that makes ADF everything pagans abhor, an organized religion. Though anyone who raises a concern about this issue are malcontents that have problem with authority. Just who the fuck do they think makes up the pagan community that they are pulling members from?

From the Mother Grove meeting notes from April 30, 2015:

Motion to change the bylaws:
   Article 5, Section 3, Subsection 1 Archdruid (AD), add number 8. "The Arch Druid must be an Active ADF Priest".

   Article 5, Section 3, Subsection 2 Vice Archdruid (VAD), add number 6. "The Vice Arch Druid must be an Active ADF Priest".

  * Motion by Jean, Seconded by Kelly
  * It was pointed out that this is not the best place to change the bylaws, it should be in Section 4, Subsection 5, Item 7.
  * Motion amended to be:
  * Change Section 4, Subsection 4, Item 7, qualifications of the AD and VAD
    From:
      Candidates for Archdruid or Vice Archdruid must have their Dedicant's Path completed.
    To:
      Candidates for Archdruid or Vice Archdruid must be ordained members of ADF Clergy in good standing, i.e. Active ADF Priests.
  * Amended motion by Jean, accepted by Kelly.
  * Point raised of what would happen if we lost all clergy due to some disaster.
  * It was pointed out that if a clergy member cannot be found to lead the church, is it really a church?
  * Point raised we are limiting who can run, and limiting choice by our members.
  * Point raised that we may be better served at times by a secular leader
  * It was stated that the Administrator is supposed to take care of the administrative.
  * It was pointed out that a significant portion of the AD's job is administrative, not just spiritual.
  * It was pointed out that this is being done with no input from the members.  It is likely most don't care, but a change this large really should have the input of the members.
  * 7 yes (Kirk, Jean, Flip, Kelly, Jeffery, Barbara, Sean), 2 no (Robb, Sharon), 0 abstain, 0 no vote
  * Motion Passed

(If you are a member, go check it out here: https://www.adf.org/members/blogs/mg/20150430)

A change like this should have at least been brought to the membership for thoughtful consideration and input. OH but that last little bit I highlighted? We the unwashed masses won’t care.

Well I care, because I know some of ADF’s priests, and I wouldn’t follow them across the road! There are ADF members who have merely completed their Dedicants Path, that I would gladly pipe into Hell. (Yeah, with the extra L.)

A friend of mine made a comment regarding ADF on her FB page and this was the response from Rev. Jeffrey Wyndham (Ian Corrigan) (former Arch Druid and current member of Stone Creed Grove in OH):

ADF is always managed by a committee elected from the membership - really by a series of committees, with varying powers. The central Board of Directors is tasked with preserving and directing the vision of the org, and elected by the membership to do just that. As in most elected leaderships, the officers are not elected to "do the will of the membership" (that is simply not part of the mission) but rather to protect and develop the org, its goals and the procedures that sustain it. There is not the slightest reason to think that a vote of the membership at large would be better able to guide the org than the decisions of a committed and informed Board.

I was still sitting on the MG when the AD/VAD vote was cast, though I am no longer a voting member. The MG seats turn over regularly - this election saw major offices change hands. There is no 'MG party' that is influencing the org, and the MG are not separate in any way from "the membership".

If a member doesn't like the current regime, but supports the work of the org, I advise hanging around - the AD chair itself will be an open-seat election next year.

You ever smash your thumb/elbow/knee and that pain reverberates though your entire body? Yep that is exactly what happened when I read that sentence. I cannot believe that he believes that. WTF do I vote for? ADF has gone completely mad!

The sense many of us members feel is that ADF is moving to only allow priests to lead Groves, and that the rest of us are just followers. NO ADF PRIEST can talk to my gods on MY behalf better than I can, and fuck you for thinking that ADF. As pagans we are all our own priests, wasn’t that kind of the point when most of us departed from the main stream religions?

I’ve been a Sr. Druid, I lead my Grove for three years. I was your FACE ADF, I was your FACE! I towed the party line, I missed family events to do ADF high days. I have literally bled, sweated and cried for ADF for the last seven years. I feel as if ADF is completely disregarding me because I’m NOT a priest. Somehow seven years of hard work being the FACE of ADF was for nothing. I am completely heartbroken that something I loved and supported had dumped me in the trash.

I only see two options, I can become a priest of ADF (even though I am already legally ordained) or I can quit. Frankly the thought of becoming a priest now wearies me, there was a time when I was going to work in that direction. Then once I became a priest, I’m sure that the rest of the "old boy's club" priests would brow beat me into complying with what they wanted anyway.

I know that ADF doesn’t care, because I’m just a piss ant out here in the bumb fuck Southwest, but some people remember me, I’m the one with the Mohawk and a hearse. 




Monday, February 16, 2015

Since I couldn't be beautiful, I made myself into a monster.

Recently I made the above post to my FB.

Many of my friends rushed to tell me that I was beautiful inside and out. While I was not actually phishing, I appreciate your compliments and well wishes.

Have you noticed that I never refer to myself as beautiful, sexy, attractive or hot? I will refer to myself as "awesome." Most people take that word to meaning a superlative of good. Awesome can mean that, but it really means; causing or inducing awe; inspiring an overwhelming feeling of reverence, admiration, or fear.

In the not very much wider world than my friends I realize that I make some people... uncomfortable. What with my high hair, resting bitch face, contacts, tattoos, monster-mash shoes and the car. There are people out there who think for someone to want to look like me, they have to be a mental defective, immature, on drugs or worship Satan.



How many parents live in fear of their kids looking like me?

Can you see it now? Can you see how I'm some people's monster? Hence the post...

Trust me, it's not bad being a monster, everyone who is worth knowing is actually a monster. We have to decide what kind of monster we want to be, the kind that destroys or the kind that creates.

On the beauty thing, I realize that my time has come and gone to be that typical beauty. The blonde cheer leader with big tits. I never cared to be this nor am I lamenting any perceived missed opportunity. I hope that I am interesting, because I think that is much better to be an interesting monster rather than an insipid beauty.